Temispire

There's a time in life when you have this best friend and all you ever want is for him or her to look at you the way he looks at others. I once had a best friend that I was so in love with that I wished he would just look at me the way he looked at other girls. He would talk to me about the other girls he had crush on and how beautiful they looked but he won't even mistakenly say anything about me. Deep down I would be waiting for him to just say "you are beautiful" but he wouldn't say it instead he would just joke with me and say "Idiot... Who gave you powder", I'll just laugh even when I'm hurting badly within me. The tears inside of me would fall and pierce my heart but the laughter would just cover up.... I don't know if you've ever felt that way. I carried this inside me for years and I was so shy to tell him I was in love with him because of the fear of rejection. I was afraid he would say no and I won't be able to look at him